Tired and disappointed

I woke up early in the morning not to be late on my appointment. I had an appointment to the Department of Employment this morning. I took the bus and I arrived early. while im waiting , I went to coffee shop and drunk coffee with one french bread then I went strait to the DOE. When I came to the office of this girl ( the person incharge for help the non employment people). I asked her, If they find anything for me, she said still searching and she said maybe I need to start from the lower position and I said Ok, but deep inside im disappointed. I was in thier list since last year September. I dont know what to think about anymore. I feel hopeless. I do also the searching by myself through the internet but most of the time Im too tired, most of you, know that I have twins, having twins its a lot of work.

My husband keeping telling me, think positive. Sometimes I feel sorry to myself. Studying four years in Manila for nothing (im commerce graduate). I need the job desperatelyyyyyyyyyyy.